I have felt like such a mom lately! Could I make myself be anymore paranoid, tense, overpowering, and ALWAYS needing to be doing something?? I sit at home and literally do nothing. Well not entirely nothing...I babysit my brothers, attempt to write new songs, and read..bleh. I have been having the worst writers block lately too. I can't finish anything I start and I am constantly thinking of these perfect one liners for a song but I can't make them fit into anything and then later I forget them. From now on I think I'll be writing everything I think down and I'll make all those one liners a song. That could be cute.
My train of thought is everywhere today. I can't stay on one topic longer than one minute and my mind has nothing better to do. I'm getting so frustrated right now, I blow up at the smallest things. I need yoga or something....I need to breathe. I'd run, but my knees are in such bad condition I'd cry on my way down the stairs. Music isn't helping me at all right now, which is a first. I don't even know what to do with myself! I'm going to go bury my head in the pillow and scream to my hearts content now. Goodbye for now.
-A stressed, irritated me

My Love for Lady Gaga

So today I was in the deepest form of depression I've ever been through. I mean, NOTHING has EVER compared to today. I think that's because I was hurt by other people...badly, when usually I'm the one hurting myself. I woke up at around 8:30 and just laid there. I rolled over to reach for Wilson's iPod and once I had it in hand I immediatly started my search for a wifi connection. My search, however, was to no avail, I plugged in the headphones and scrolled through the artists names. I didn't want to listen to anything, I was sick of having the iPod on shuffle and I didn't want any dancing kind of music. I sat and scrolled not really sure of my purpose, but then I came across a name that I couldn't pass up: Lady Gaga. I know, I know, Lady Gaga? You wake up depressed and the best you've got is Lady Gaga?? Well, yes. But truth be told I don't think there is another artist I can connect to better. She's been through everything I have and much more! Her parents think she's a freak, they think she's absolutley insane, they don't understand her,and more of settled for her as a daughter. She's had her heart broken countless times, she knows what it's like to be scared of a man. Lady Gaga, in my book, is one of the most respectable women I know of. Most everyone calls her a freak, or crazy, but aren't you? She does what we all think, but are too afraid to try to accomplish. She does the things she wants because she's not afraid of what anyone else thinks of her. She's talented, fashionable, thoughtful, brave, and most importantly she gives her all or nothing. She stands up for what she believes in and she refuses to back down. She takes crap from stupid people who don't see the value in her personality, values, opinions, or RIGHTS as a human being. I hope everyone will look past the crazy outfits, the hairstyles, and her make up. Listen to her MUSIC. That's the reason she's here! She has messages that she expresses through the music. Lady Gaga is just another person with big dreams. The only difference between us and her is that she made her dream a reality.

Power to the little monsters <3